And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem

You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after
isn't enough
and I swear I'm gonna cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.


I honestly don't know what to do right now. I never thought I'd get so emotional over him. I never thought it'd end up this way, me sitting here again feeling like ever single fiber inside of me is ripping and screaming, trying to get out. I never though I'd be able to feel this way again. It's been three years since someones made me hurt this way and I don't know why I let it happen. I can't believe I let myself get so attached to something that wasn't even there in the first place. How can I survive a blow like this again? Because, once more, it was me who idealized, who imagined everything to be better than it was. He did nothing wrong and I know that. I know that. So why can't I let this go? Why can't I stop blaming him and making him into the devil of the story. ....I never was content with being an angel anyway....








And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
Cuz it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy.
I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up.
But I swear I'm gonna cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.